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My Biggest Fear

Sometimes I think my biggest fear is not so much the of living in a different culture and all of the things that go with that. Looking different and being looked at differently. Fumbling through learning a new language. Being so far from home and all the things I know and am comfortable with. My biggest fear is that we will go down there and not do any good. My biggest fear is that the only reason I am going to Guatemala is because it sounds like an adventure - it sounds cool, because it does. Oh, I think there will be opportunities to help - being North American, you automatically draw attention. This is good and bad. I hope we can use it with a kingdom advancing strategy, especially as we learn the language more. Sometimes I think people will assume we have money. And the problem is, almost everybody needs help, not in a way where they just think they need help, like so many around here but really just need a swift kick in the pants but in places like Guatemala, people really do need help. There really is extreme poverty. There really is a lot of people who have absolutely nothing, and have no way of getting anything and its not because the jobs available do not pay what they want - there are no jobs available.Oh, here and there, they scratch out a living. Living off the land. Working industriously. And many make the trip to the Coast or some of the closer by places to work on the plantations in slave like conditions for the coveted $10 a day. Yet, basic necessities, things that are so easily taken for granted here - food, clothing and shelter are not taken for granted there.So, it will probably be easy to help. We will probably be constantly sought out for help. And we will help.But we can't help everybody. There lies the problem. I am not as rich as I probably will be seen as. In fact by most North American standards, I do not have much.Someone who has been a Missionary in Africa quite a while gave me an awesome piece of advice yesterday - in fact his email was encouraging and faith building beyond explanation. Here is a snippet of what He said: "I remember all the feelings that you are going through right now...going to miss family and friends but excited about the Call. I trust you will have access to the internet??? Technology takes some of the sting out of being thousands of miles from home...There are sooo many things I would like to advise you and maybe I can message you some as I think of them but here is the one I hope you will make a big part of your mission. Don't just make a difference make an eternal difference." So many things have been so encouraging lately. The number of people sponsoring a child or expressing willingness to sponsor a child. The support coming in from places I would never have imagined. In so many ways I have even seen the gospel working in more powerful ways with the people we are leaving behind.It already seems like more has happened before we have even left, than I could have ever dreamed to happen. It's almost like the stepping out in faith ignites a spark that would have never happened without it. And I see that.So some of the fear is starting to be quenched but Lord I pray, do more. Let me not ever think your work depends on me but I am ever depending that the work you have given me, depends on you. I don't want to be just putting band aids on cancer. I want to know how we can help people with really helping. them. Eternally helping them. Let us not be so earthly minded, that we are only earthly good.I do know it does no good to feed someone's belly, even all the rest of their days of their life or better yet, it does no good to teach someone how to provide food for their belly all the days of their life, if their eternal destiny is much more of a hell than this life was. I do know the most important thing a man, woman or child can be instructed in, is the fact that they are sinners who have offended a holy God, are under His wrath and their whole life God is storing up more and more wrath towards them until the day of judgment where they will justly get what they deserve - mainly eternal damnation.But God, probably the two most beautiful words in the Bible. Read Ephesians 2 once. So beautifully put in Romans 5:8, "but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us. "(Romans 5:8) Christ made a way out. God did through Christ what we could never do for ourselves. What mercy. What love. Salvation is completely by grace. Salvation is completely by faith. Salvation is completely by Christ. There is no other way. This is the gospel. God saves sinners. Jesus died. The Holy Spirit imparts life in and through and because of Christ life, death and resurrection and by the power of the Holy Spirit a life of belief and faith is created and sustained based totally on the finished work of Christ. A new heart. A new creation. A new life. But this should effect how we live. The gospel should effect how we live. If the God of the universe saves you and than comes and takes up residence, in and through you. It should have some affect on your life. For all who are led by the Spirit of God are sons of God. (Romans 8:14) All of our actions should be driven by this one thing. All of our actions should be driven by the significance of eternal significance. Is what we are doing right now, going to matter a 100 yrs. from now. Lets be so heavenly minded that we cannot help but be earthly good. May all of our earthly endeavors be so gospel motivated and so gospel infused that they would be vehicles that might, No, not might but will drive people out of darkness into His marvelous light. (Colossians 1:13) We know there will be some. Let us not give up until we get some, from every tribe, tongue and nation. (Rev. 5:9) This is the cry of my heart. I hope it is yours, too. If a brother or sister is poorly clothed and lacking in daily food, and one of you says to them, “Go in peace, be warmed and filled,” without giving them the things needed for the body, what good is that? (James 2:15, 16) Therefore, we are ambassadors for Christ, God making his appeal through us. We implore you on behalf of Christ, be reconciled to God. (2 Corinthians 5:20) for while bodily training is of some value, godliness is of value in every way, as it holds promise for the present life and also for the life to come. The saying is trustworthy and deserving of full acceptance. For to this end we toil and strive, because we have our hope set on the living God, who is the Savior of all people, especially of those who believe. (1 Timothy 4:8-10)

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